I grew up kicking soccer balls on a field and running over hurdles on a track. In college I ran miles through fields and tried to navigate the school’s cafeteria as best I could amongst the buffet of “pasta-bilities” and the candy station. During my stint in Corporate America I ran 5Ks and fell in love with yoga. My husband and I had a baby boy in 2011. Being a stay at home mom I’m living a whole new chapter of never sitting still! Until I got pregnant with twins Spring 2014.
For the first time in my life, I was forced to slow down.
It started with 18 weeks of “All-Day” sickness. Entertaining a three year old in a constant state of nausea is no bueno. Chronic back pain drove me to a mid-wife, a doctor, a chiropractor, a massage therapist and finally and physical therapist. I was starting to feel better when I went into pre-term labor with the twins at 28 weeks pregnant. The doctors put me on bed rest for two months.
And three year olds don’t really like to sit still so it kind of felt like I lost my best friend.
I knew what I was doing was right and I would do it all over again for the safety of my babies. However, every day I’d wake up knowing that this day would be the same as the day before. I was in a dark place. I wasn’t myself. It was against every part of who I am to be still for that long. I felt trapped in my own body.
The babies were born at 37 weeks and I’m SO grateful they made it to term! When I made it to the hospital my doctor was shocked that was already 7 cm dilated because of the way I was acting. The babies were born 3 hours after we arrived at the hospital and I pushed them out without pain medication in 30 minutes. I’m not saying this for a pat on the back…just hear me out!
The day the twins were born I felt ALIVE for the first time in a LONG time. I felt hope and excitement that I was turning the page on a new chapter in my life. The pain I was feeling represented a chapter in my life that I’d never have look back on.
Health and fitness has always been a part of my life. However, it wasn’t until I had to press pause that I began to fully realize our body’s awesome-ness and the roll our mind plays into everything. We are all FILLED with potential and I want to help others realize that and help them achieve their goals and dreams.
The ebb and flow of life is real. It’s what we do during the lows that defines us and raise us back up. Time to LIVE this life.